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SELFDOUBT

by Lifehold

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1.
Birth Rite 01:13
Set Birth rite Fuck this birth rite
2.
True Face 02:32
Bound by fear I hear the words but I’m never ever near this fucking existentialism. I’ve shown my true face But I’ve learned every breath amounts to misuse Bound by the grasp of fear Sick of spewing the same shit Walk away from what I once knew Maybe I was born to lose I’ll scream this ‘til I’m fucking blue I’ve been down and out since I’ve felt this Why can’t I be be who I used to I have reason to hate myself But I can’t do a thing to convince you that this feeling is so hollow No intuition to follow Selfishly, a path I walk to fulfill no desire We’ll always be at odds Conflicting mindsets, forever disparate I’ve always felt so fucking hollow Live to lose I’ve scoured the bottom I’ve always lived to lose, it’s the pain I choose So fuck you I’ll take this pain to the fucking grave and I won’t break to the attention that you crave Out of time and you’ve crossed the line so fuck you.
3.
Another tick to the pendulum Another tick to the pendulum That’s another minute off your life I don’t mean a damn thing to you Your words grip like a rope around my neck Leaving me in the dark feeling jaded Become aware of my fucking strife These dreams are haunting me I can’t shake the feeling Those snake eyes And a tongue like a fucking viper Tongue like a viper Like the blade a knife I don’t want to feel I’ve spent all this time learning how to pass by Out of sight, out of mind But I’m learning how to forget with these vices Too much time in the dark Won’t let you get away with the scars you made Learn how I felt all this time Eye for an eye blind With the blade of my knife I’m learning how to forget Another tick to the pendulum The last minute of your life An eye for an eye taught me how to fucking forget With the blade of a knife forget Shoulder to shoulder, turned to cold Last breath It’s time for you to feel to what I fucking felt Welcome to my darkest day An eye for a fucking eye Prepare yourself for the sharpest chill
4.
Life’s tight grip has brought me back to the days of no passion Fucking take me back, let me feel the embrace of the darkest kind Back to the care free days I can’t get this out of mind Everything’s a blur fucking leaving me blind I can’t seem to catch a break I’m always carving at this mold Life’s grip I took all these years to find a path that fucking flows Forever carving out my mold Lifehold go! I can’t break this cycle Time is running the fucking out Always trying to break a mold Fuck the story retold Always stuck in the same shit Ready to quit Gun to my head, rope to my neck Bitch. I spent all this time searching But how long can I hold on before I let it slip? Watch me fall or tuck it away Fighting for my life Set sea another day I can’t contain these feelings that I have Cut into life’s hold
5.
Cut The Ties 01:54
I'm going to set this straight before you get it twisted This life I live is nothing but mine I'm pursuing something that probably doesn't mean shit to you It was never supposed to Open your eyes, open your mind Try to understand what I'm telling you Cut the ties, no longer blind I'm not falling for your bullshit too This my expression, my passion I've given everything I am This was never meant to please you And we'll never see eye to eye 'til I turn my back Cut the ties Cut the ties This has everything to do with me How is it so hard for you to see that you don't mean shit to me and you never will This has always been about me finding myself without pleasing you That's my fucking choice Keep your concerns to yourself and trust me when I say, "I'll be fucking fine." Trust me when I say, "I'll be fucking fine."
6.
I'm drowning I can't get one foot in front of the other An uphill battle, swallowed by the fucking struggle All this time spent standing tall I was always told to put my fate in the hands of another But I won't bend to the point where the only thing left is to break I'll endure this on my own I don't need to suffer what you make I've spent the last 22 years and all I know is loss Forced my hand and I won't cower to a crooked cross I've come to terms with this pain and after years I've learned to live with loss I've been living with loss my whole life I could end it all with a knife But I'll keep holding this pain I'll never be the same I've spent the last 22 years and all I know is this feeling of ruin The only thing you've ever showed me is how to invest myself in fucking faith You can keep your fucking cross You can keep your goddamn words You can keep spilling your lies While I spit on your fucking eyes Live with loss
7.
Lone Wolf 02:15
Head in the dirt Feet in the sand Body at ease Cruel work at hand The reality of both worlds is that there’s no master plan Just me trying to fucking understand Rejection without acceptance like a wolf with no prey It makes all the difference Are you here to fucking stay? You say a lot of things but you do a whole lot less I’m not your puppet, I’m not like the rest Goal driven filled with selfdoubt What did you think this was all about? Never cared for anyone but myself A lone wolf with no prey Never cared for anyone but myself A lone wolf with no pack to give a shit about Lone wolf Lone wolf with no prey Rejection without acceptance like a lone wolf without a prey It makes all the difference, are you here or are you out? Lone wolf
8.
Selfdoubt 02:38
I've been having all these bitter thoughts, in darkness born I've got no place to go I've been down this fucking road before Don't look my way, same shattered phase Don't look my way, go our separate ways Or have I fucked up everything? Time tells, time turns Turn it back Times change, but thoughts never fade Turn it back, I know you won't I've felt this way before with the same perception reborn I always crawl back to where I started To the same face and thoughts restarted I just can't seem to turn it back Hesitate Breathe it in Respire No words or tirades will ever change the purview, this fucking shackles on me. This hold on me Life's hold on me Chained in self doubt Born in self doubt

credits

released April 10, 2020

Vocals - Hayden
Guitar - Cameron Crosbie
Bass - Kolton Rude
Drums - Anthony Roybal (Matthew Lloyd, Tyler Bentley & Jared Sewak)

Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by Tyson Chavis
Album Art by Cameron Crosbie (Modelled by Emily Kester)

Special thanks to everyone who supported us throughout the years. Ultra special thanks to Matthew Lloyd, Tyler Bentley and Jared Sewak, you all were a catalyst for everything that happened for this band and we appreciate the time you all put into us to make this dream come true. Mega special thanks to Tyson Chavis for continuing to record with us and for having the utmost patience with us since we started the process 3 years ago. Uber special thanks to Rob Lewis at Desert Peak Studios, without you we probably wouldn't have finished the album. We're all finally here and we couldn't have done this without all of you mentioned above. Big love from us to you!

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